Molly Moon's Temptations and Pharmacy Struggles
Height: 5 ft 7 in CW: 170 GW1:160 GW2:150 GW3:140 GW4:130 UGW:120
Ran out of various supplies I need to take care of myself and made a day out of busing down to the pharmacy and grocery shopping. Supplies I need every month include syringes, insulin( both long and quick acting), birth control, lancets, blood sugar testing strips, and a sharps container. I am a type 1 diabetic and have been since I was 15. Right before my 15th birthday I got really really ill. So ill I couldn't walk or move, I was weak and looked pallid.My hair started falling out and I bruised really easily. I had to pee all the time and craved fluids like a raving mad lunatic. I would get angry and irrational and scream or cry in public(I also found out around this time that I had manic depression). I was dry heaving for hours and fainting for hours before I was sent to a children's hospital. There I was diagnosed and told I was close to death. It was a scary experience and since then my life has been a sort of science experiment. After all too low or too high of blood sugar and I die. Diabetic coma is a scary thing. For this reason M, my fiancé, let's me stay at home. I currently don't work but I would love too. I feel sick a lot still. And really tired. I have had jobs in the past and in fact have been working since the age of 16 and before that I worked for my dad's own company as a sort of summer helper. My pharmacy is close to Molly Moon's(a fancy local ice cream small chain) and even though I begged my fiancé not to take me anywhere near the store he dragged me in anyways. They always carry one vegan flavor and usually I can easily say no because I hate super chocolatle-y flavors(unless its that time of the month!) or any non fruit flavor basically. But today they had Stumptown Coffee vegan frozen dessert and coffee anything is good in my book. My fiancé ordered a single scoop with some vegan whipped cream(I'm pretty sure it was coconut whip). I tried to hold off eating any while my fiancé M took the first couple of bites. I was trying to wait and see if he would eat all but sadly he handed me the cup after five bites. I ate about six spoon fulls and felt really guilty. There is no exact calorie count online or in store that I could see but similar vegan coffee dessert creams are 260 calories for a half cup serving or about 1 scoop. So I probably had about 150 or so calories with just the couple of bites I took if you include the coconut whip as well. After ice cream we walked around a bit and enjoyed the extremely sunny day. We walked around for about an hour today and part of the time I was carrying at least 10lbs of groceries so I estimated online that I burned around 160 calories at least. I need to start exercising more again. When I was 132lbs about a year and a half ago I ran 3-5 miles almost every single day. My goal is to slowly build my endurance back up again. Depression has caused me to lock myself away indoors for almost four months now. I only go out around the block usually to walk my dog and I would really like to change this. I'm lonely and miss having friends and going to art exhibits and live shows. We bused to the grocery store and local dollar store to buy food and toiletries. Tomorrow in M's birthday and he will be turning 20 I made him two Vegan Cheesecakes to celebrate. They are not as bad for you as regular cheesecake and they are mostly made of pureed/ground nuts, coconut milk, and fruits. I made a strawberry coco drizzle cheesecake and a candied lemon and blueberry cheesecake which I'm sure M will adore. He enjoys traditional New York style cheesecake which is what the base is but for the candied lemon blueberry one I added some lemon simple syrup into the base to sweeten it while also weaving a circular pattern of fresh blueberries and home candied lemon slices on the top and for the Strawberry chocolate drizzle I added swirls or a coco hardshell sauce with slices of fresh strawberries. The cheesecakes are no bake and the plain version only takes 7 ingredients to make!(but I got fancy and went all out with mine ;P) Tomorrow also marks 3 1/2 years of being a couple. Two years of this time we have been living together. :D Anyways I just recently got home after our day out and am planning on eating my first real meal of the day. This morning I had a diet soda with 0 calories and two vegan multi vitamins with about three glasses of tap water. Then I had my few bites of sinful pleasure out and about with M. Which has me up to about 150 calories. I want to eat at least under 1,000 calories a day to lose the maximum amount of weight but I will also be trying some different fad/crash diets for variety(all of which will be modified to fit my strict vegan diet) and will also most certainly have failure days where I eat way more calories than planned/wanted. Binge eating is a bitch. SO I'm thinking of making a spinach salad for dinner with cucumber, tomato, gardenia pickled vegetable mix, vegan "bacon" bits( made of soy), and a light balsamic vinaigrette. I have a rare treat to accompany it tonight! A white no calorie Monster energy drink beverage. Which happens to be my favorite flavored one. :D Usually M won't let me buy them but he was worried I would't eat today so he agreed I could have one. I will post a pic and today's finally calories count after I chow down on it! I want to include a "thinspo" each post to keep me motivated so here it is. "Ana Wants To Dance".It's actually Ann but I think ana is more fitting.
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